Energized

Today is Friday and I'm feeling energized.  We have dinner plans with friends tonight at one of my favorite dinner spots.  I have been taking some medication that my Dr. gave me to help me get rid of the horrible shoulder muscle pain i've been experiencing and it's been helping me sleep so I'm finally starting to feel better than I had been.  We went to the farmers market this week...i didn't really buy anything, i wasn't prepared at the time to make anything.  Now i wish i had bought something so that i could make something fun to eat this weekend.  Oh well...maybe next week.

July 26, 2011

Okay so I am now irritated with my tiredness and lack of interest.  I have been this way since I hurt my neck, I cannot wait to get this surgery over with and get on with my life pain free..and with the use of my right arm so that I can go back to doing my hair and makeup.  Seriously never thought i'd miss being able to just freshen up and look nice.

Looking at all the blogs out there it amazes me...it just amazes me.  I should of messed around out here on my own blog last night but I didn't...too lazy these days just don't feel like doing anything,  So I think blogging will become a hobby, i think i like it.  I am going to start using my camera more, I don't have a very good one but let's wait and see if I post and take pictures like I think i will or can and then maybe i'll buy a better one.  The one i have is waterproof for they kayak....it's good for daytime not so much for anything else.

I find that all of these people are amazing with their blogs, it gives me insight into what I could be doing.  Apparently I'm not as creative as i thought i was and seeing what others do has inspired me to want to do more...I still have to figure out what more is but I know I'm bored and want a fuller life.

Awesome I can blog on the go!!

Two Days in a Row..

This will probably be a record for me for blogging... two consecutive days... wow.   It's amazing to me how  many ordinary people blog...blog about everything, tell all the details of their lives on a electronic chalk board in time square for anyone to see.  Hmmm.  Why?  Some people make a living from it, I'm trying to figure out how I do that. I mean really, suburban chicago working middle aged mother....how do you sell that?  I wish i was more than average, and i suppose i could be if i put more into it.  But i like my life, i enjoy NOT running in a rat race or filling every day with something important to do.  I enjoy getting home after work and.....doing what i want.  Hanging with my the boys, watching TV or watching them play video games..and just take it in.  RELAX is apparently what they call it.  I'm not sure that our lives would be richer if I scooted my son off every day to some sort of class.  He likes taking drum lessons so we do that...playing with friends in the neighborhood...regular stuff.  He's not a sports kid and he enjoys our company, so he likes to hang at home with us, it's peaceful and not crazy like the rest of the world seems to be.  Hmmm, just not sure...am I missing something most days i don't feel like i am and i am glad for the time i get with my kids and husband just talking...i guess time will tell.

I do however want something new to do...i crochet, i kayak...gardening seems to be my nemesis along with cooking.  I can follow a recipe for sure but certainly can't be creative on my own.  Gardening is a toughy since I just never seem to know where to start...so I started with a few herbs and tomato plants this year...Tomato's will grow in anything, they are surrounded by weeds and are flourishing...very cool.  I guess we will see what I add...oh well i guess i already added gardening..hah...lookie there.

Another day...

Okay again not a great blogger but..today i realized it's not just the blogging, I can't really write.  I make no sense and it all seems so irrelevant. 

Husband now has vertigo so that is adding to his recovery.  He's not happy about it for sure.

Rental daughter's husband has gotten a killer new job that he starts in August, they will finally be making some better money and be able to move into a better place...always nice to see your kids succeed.

Daughter is still out there doing her thing.....

Son has been at camp all week and loving it, I just realized today that he starts school in less than a month!!!!

Wow the summer has gone by fast and i don't feel like i've enjoyed much of it.  I'm going to get on that right away!!!! 

SEE, consistency not my thing... July 7, 2011

Okay so when I decided to start blogging it was because I needed a place to ... release.  My husband went in for vasular bypass surgery, it has some big long name.  So of course in the midst of all that i was too spent to blog, when really that is when i should have.  I am sure that the feeling and things that i was going through those first days would of been interesting.  Of course again I was too spent to do anything but sleep by the time i got home from the hospital.  So, tonight, he is home and still recovering and certainly not as fast as he'd like.  He is excited about being able to walk pain free. We are all excited for him to be able to go to the fairs and museums again.  Hell just to go to the grocery store.   I feel bad for him right now stuck home with nothing to do and not a whole lot of energy to do it anyway.  Pain is a big factor as well.  We also have to start living different lifestyles...no smoking, better diet - much better diet and exercise.  All challenges...all at once.  My son also has to change with us and he's 12 so that's not going to be fun but we've made him sedentary and not very health conscious.  It will definately be a journey...a life long one.  We are trying to decide on what kind of exercise equipment to invest in and put here in the office.  One cardio and one weight system....more research is needed.

 Not to mention that at work I am adding on 3 times the responsibility, I think I can do it and am glad for the challenge, I was getting bored anyway.  I'll hopefully get a nice bonus for taking it on with a smile. 

I'm going to the neurologist tomorrow for my C6 and C7 protrusions, hopefully he will have a plan to fix them and get it done before i am full blown in all this new work.  I've been taking hydrocodone for weeks, i tried the cortisone shot but it doesn't seem to have had any effect, i get the second one on monday.  We will see how it goes.

I also need to figure out how to blog on my iPhone, it may be cool to blog all day....i would like to be able to go back and see how i was feeling and what i was thinking as i never seem to remember with any accuracy.

Off to tend to my ailing husband...he needs company.

July 4th - The start - "What am I doing?"

Okay, I am 42 and I am just starting to blog for the first time.  I'm not quite sure that I've made up my mind what this blog will really be about yet...daily life (boring), kids (too old), work (boring), thoughts for the day.... is the one i am most intrigued by.  The end of each day I am going to blog about my thoughts during the day, how i felt and why.  Not sure that anyone cares but I am trying to be a happier person to get off my ass and not be such a slug all the time.  I see all these people running around filling every waking moment with something to do.  I don't think that is for me.  I like to watch TV and play video games with my family, i supposed that is not completely nothing but compared to what others do, it is really minimal.  I know people who spend every waking moment doing, be it going here or there or making something or cleaning something or god knows what.   Some do it in the name of their kids, some do it because they "have" to.  I'm trying to figure out how to motivate myself to do the preverbial "more".  To do even the things I know i need to get added into my life.  Exercise being one of them.  Family time being another.  Entertaining - because I enjoy entertaining just not cleaning up afterwards.  Wine Club.  Book Club. Kayak.  So many things I have that I can fill my days with besides work....but I just don't....why?  that is what I am looking for here...to see why.  Hopefully in writing this blog I will be able to see patterns and get advise as to what I can do to be happy and have a full life.  I know it can be fuller....I'm pretty happy though, but then of course if I knew i was that happy i wouldn't start a blog like this now would I.  Agh well.  Here we go, we will see how the day ends up.