Cooking...

I am really getting into this cooking thing...as long as I don't have to do it during the week.  I just don't have the energy when I get home....but the weekends were made for cooking...and eating...which is the problem.

I really like to eat...I like flavorful dishes, now I know that you don't have to use high fat ingredients but let's face it some things just taste better that way.  The search continues for recipes for foods I love but without the guilt and weight I seem to gain.  Moderation right...ya that is a concept just outside my reach...self control is the current thing I am practicing and it's not going fantastic.

I am definately an emotional or boredom eater.  I have started to make large bowls of air popped popcorn because I like to nibble...constantly.  SO popcorn and veggies no dip are my current choices for this vice.  I don't buy anything else that I can nibble on that will kill my weight loss efforts.  Of course I really kill my efforts with the wine..the wine is the devil.

I enjoy a glass of wine after work.....not a 4oz glass of wine.  My favorite wine glass looks like a fish bowl with one leg.  So is it worth it...can I give up the wine until Thanksgiving.....none, not on the weekend .. just none until Thanksgiving.....I'm going to give it a try.  It will help me practice self control as well so I am killing two birds with one stone per say.

Wish me luck (and yes I mean all alcohol, not just wine) !!!

Loong Week

Okay so, you know how it is, you have to work late for a few days..no big deal right?  Right...but of course today feels like Friday now...so what happens if I think tomorrow is Saturday?  First I would never live it down around here...some horrific nickname would probably come out of it.  Second...i would probably feel horrible about "forgetting" to come in to work...but I wonder how many people do it?  Forget to go in, don't realize it's not Saturday or a holiday....I've never seen it but it has to happen right?  Especially since I've known people, including myself, get up on Saturday morning and head into work thinking it's a weekday.  Are we that conditioned?  So conditioned to worry about our jobs and our employability that we will get up and go in when we aren't supposed to but we NEVER neglect to head in to work mistakenly....  Not a sick day, I've taken those mental health days, but someone knows I won't be there or that I'm working from home. 

Maybe it's only for a moment and no one really notices since we aren't really late...we skip the shower once we realize it.   Hmmmm may be worth a try one day....would anyone notice?  Would they get really worried?  Would I get in trouble...I guess I'd make up something right?  I wouldn't just tell someone that oh, I forgot it was only Thursday or I thought it was Saturday it's been a long week...

It's getting colder..

Okay granted, I'm not a huge fan of rain and crappy weather when I have to go somewhere.  But on a day like today, where I'm cleaning house, baking cookies and getting some dinner's ready for the week...I'M A HUGE FAN....it's cold and creepy outsde.  Perfect day to snugge up with hubby and watch a movie, eat some popcorn etc... 

I have been a little confliced at work.  I love what I do, my career is perfect for my personality and my abilities.   I've added on a ton of responsibility and some bonus pay, but, and it's a big but, where do I go from here?  I'm at the top of my pay grade for this company, I'm not feeling effective in what they have me trying to do....SO I've been looking around the company and I've found that one of our Business Units really has some opportunities for me.  Here is the catch....they are in Tulsa.  Yup Tulsa.  NOW there are a TON of pluses to this.   I would love to live in the Tulsa area, weather is great.  I'd be like 3 1/2 hours from my sister.  The company is growing by leaps and bounds.  I think Jeff and I both could benefit career wise and personmally from this move.  NOW...that being said, I love who I work for.  They are family.  How in the world do I say I want to look at other opportunites?  Crazy....absolutely crazy.  If I hated what I did and who I worked for this would be as easy as pie...SEEYA!!  Yes I understand they should be supportive in my career objectives...that's not the point, they will be....the point is that it's still hard to have his conversation.

Well I'm certainly not going to say anything this week.  The Board of Directors are in and there is enough going on I don't need to add to it.  So I have at least a week to figure out my approach.  I have to have a plan and I think I just want to open the door to the possibility..it may not even pan out.   So I guess I'm getting a head of myself.....first the conversation.  Which I think is more about my effectiveness and future prospects more than it is about WOW I want to move to Tulsa....sigh.....life decisions, opportunity to be viewed and reviewed.  I just don't want to miss an opportunity that could alter and enrich our lives for the better.

Okay well now that I've gotten that out there...I'm going back to my cleaning..yipppies for me!!

Piles of paper....

Oh the piles of paper on my desk...I know tht if I go through it I will throw most of it away.  I also know there is some forgotton bill in there too...that sucks.

You can't even tell that is my printer in the picture!!  It's also a copier and scanner but of course you can't use those right now because of all the stuff on it!!

Also, after tackling the pile of paper on my desk I am going to attempt to clean out the corner cabinet of the kitchen.  You know that loooong cabinet in the corner that goes so far back that you haven't seen the things in the back for years?  Yes that cabinet, scary thing, but a necessary thing this time of year..I think my cookie cutters and baking needs are all back there.  This is the time of year I start to bake and be all domestic.  During the summer months..nada I don't even want to grill out.   Unfortunately the weather isn't really cooperating with me ... it's been over 80° for days...HELLOOO it's October!!  I want warm spiced wines or ciders, yummy breads and all the good stew's and chili's that come with the Fall.  But noooo it's too hot.  I decided yesterday that I was drinking the spiced wine anyway..I just didn't heat it up, it was still really yummy. 

RJ has a new friend that he is spending a lot of time with.  He is over there a lot so next weekend I think I am going to have them over here for the sleep over.  Although there really isn't anything for them to do here...yes I admit my house is boring.  Other than video games and a walk to the plaza there is nothing here.  BUT they can't possibly have that much to do over there... can they?

Amber has been working her butt off, 2 jobs...good for her!!!  I'm proud of her...she is moving forward and I don't seem to hear any excuses this time.  Relief also passes over me, let's be honest, she's my daughter I want her to want the world and then of course to have it.  

Jeff and I had a nice quiet evening last night .... hung out had a nice steak dinner, caught up on shows from the week and went to bed early.  Not the together time I was hoping for but I'm not sure what I expect when we are alone..mainly because we are rarely alone.  I was able to walk around in my underwear this morning...it was liberating!!!  We had a nice breakfast...see a pattern?  We eat when we are alone...hmm that doesn't seem like what we should be using this precious time for does it?  Go figure...

Off to my paperwork and cabinetry!!  I will conquer them both today!!!  Then Jeff is taking me to get a jelly roll pan and I'm going to make CAKE!!  YEAH...

Too fast....

GEEZ....I can't get a grip on time.  I go to work I come home I go to sleep and I start all the madness over and over.  I've taken on more executives to handle at work...3 to be exact and the three of them are running at so many things, especially in this economy.  New strategies, new initiative, new ways to keep associates engaged and happy, re thinking everything in order to stay ahead of the curve all the time.  It's a wonder they are at all sane at the end of a few years of this activity.  Now I don't believe that executive should get paid for not performing, with all their golden parachutes and seperation agreements.  I do feel very good about the leadership where I work, they take it very seriously and failure is not an option and it's not just for them it's for all the managers that have incentive plans that won't get paid if the wrong direction is taken or the wrong decision is made.  It's for the 401k's that won't get added to.  For all the little people who work every day to keep the company running these guys work 24 hours a day 7 days a week to be sure all those people have a job to come in to. 
So back to my days...which I can't remember...I absolutely hate not knowing how I drove in to work or if I bit anyone's head off because I was busy.  Ugh...I will say that this week so far I have only had to apologize once which is good since last week when all this madness started I am certain even with all the apologies I made there were those that I missed.  It's a terrible feeling and so back to normal, back to organized chaos...starting tonight. 
Starting now!!! 
This weekend is getting the back yard ready for the cold winter...pulling the tomato's that I planted and never picked..so sad.  Put away the furniture etc... It's going to be nice weather here so it won't be so bad to be doing things outside.

Book Club is at my house this month,  Hunger Games was book I chose and now I have finished all three books in the Hunger Games series...it was a very good series really kept me interested.  I would recommend to anyone!!  I'm hoping that we can talk about all three books, of course we only have to have the first book read......I'm really looking forward to the evening of book club we have a very cool collection of women with all different views, which is what I really like about the group.  I like when it get''s uncomfortable and weird...is that twisted?

Other than those boring things...ain't shit going on.