Again today....

I walked.....

I ate the frozen breaded chicken in the freezer..added an iced coffee to boot..

I don't think it's bad chicken any more, I cut up the chicken strips put them in a pita with
some lettuce, onion and bbq sauce!!  It was far more delightful than i had anticipated frozen breaded chicken to be......

1 day down...REALLY?

Really, day one, I've been trying to do this for oh I dunno 1200 days!!!!  No time like the present to start though huh?

I would like to proclaim yesterday a success, I stayed on track, kept my hands out of the M&M's and I worked out for 30 minutes....that is a very successful day. 
Dinner tonight may prove to be a challenge because I didn't plan, I didn't really plan yesterday either but I had pulled out ground turkey so I made turkey taco's....is that planning?  I had a taco salad with salsa as the dressing.  Tonight I haven't pulled anything out...so it could be an issue if I resort to some sort of frozen, breaded meat. 

Yes I know that shouldn't be in my freezer to begin with.  But look how pretty it looks in the picture....







I have found a free app on line and it has an app for my iPhone so I am able to track everything I eat, when I eat it and exercise when I do it.  Here is the link to my page:  http://www.myfitnesspal.com/ .  It is a nifty site, when I end each day the program calculates how much I would weigh in 5 weeks if every day were the same as that one...  So on a great day I can see how the weight will come off.  Again nifty little site.

I do think I like blogging..let's see how creative I'll get.  I'm trying to add additional pages by topic, so if i'm writing about the kids one day...then dieting the next they aren't all jumbled together...I haven't figure it out yet...as you can see from the main page ... KIDS just has picts of my kids.  I'll get there.

The scale and bullying...

For pete sake got on the scale this morning...about cried.  I know why I'm gaining weight so why am I so screwed up that I can't stop doing the things that are bad for me.  Okay I CAN stop right...it's called will power or resolve or plain old self control.   Geez seems like I have none of those things.   Okay so today has been really good so far, I think the key is to eat consistently throughout the day, not all at once.  So we are going to try that approach.  I'll let you know how that turns out...

I missed book club last night because I didn't feel good ... the next one is at my house which is my motivation to get my butt in gear and get some stuff done around the house.  Like the carpet on the stairs for sure!!!  So I am excited about that.... I like to entertain, but haven't done it in forever because i really don't like my house right now.... my kitchen is a pit and needs to be redone, maybe I'll post some pictures and you can see what i mean.

The copier and i have already had a run in today.  Technology can really complicate your life some times ... and over the dumbest stuff, copies seems like an easy thing right yah...ok whatever.  I've spent my whole morning screwing with the copy machines..ugh...so much for time savers.

Bullying...Mean Children....I would like to touch on the subject.  I know that all kids, even mine say things in the heat of the moment and are definitely influenced by the kids around them (mob mentality)...even if they don't like the ones around them.  Some boy called my son a "faggot" ... I mean really!!!  It was because he couldn't do a push up, now my answer to that is that RJ has got to change his behavior if he doesn't like being called names because he can't do something....but then i think about it, now granted he needs to be healthier and he needs to exercise but why should he do it because someone else is an asshole?  But then I think about it some more..and believe that we are usually motivated by fitting in and by conforming right?    Sigh...so do i push him to exercise and learn to do a push up and be more FIT so that he doesn't have to endure this type of scrutiny and meanness ??  and then I think some more, and I think he gets picked on because he is sensitive and he is not going to react, he even said he wanted to punch the kid in the face...but he just walked away and then internalized the way he felt.  So by helping him to learn to do a push up and be more fit is only going to make one problem go away and another one pop up, some kids are mean and will find any reason they can to tease someone and hurt their feelings.  What does a parent do?  How do we help our kids figure out how to deal with these things?  I mean it really doesn't go away does it?  Adults do it, I chose not to hang with those types of adults and they are usually not as brazen as children are and only say things about you behind your back.....sigh....where are the answers?